Friday, October 26, 2007

Day 17 NO NO NOOOOOO

Round 1
Date started – October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight – 267 lbs
Weight today – 250.5 lbs
Weight loss today – + 0.5 lbs
Weight loss yesterday – 0.5 lbs
Weight loss since beginning – 16.5 lbs


*Sigh* it's just been one of those days where everything goes wrong. It only started with the GAIN of 0.5 lbs. I'm sorry, I just don't have it in me to post much tonight. Hope you're all doing well. I'll write more tomorrow!

Cheryl

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Day 16 VLCD Soooo close!

Round 1
Date started – October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight – 267 lbs
Weight today – 250 lbs
Weight loss today – 0.5 lbs
Weight loss yesterday –1 lb
Weight loss since beginning – 17 lbs

It was bittersweet stepping on the scale today. I lost 0.5 pounds. Every loss is a good loss, right? I just really wanted to see 249.something!! I'm dying to get into the 240s!

Saturday will be my half-way point. I can't believe it's been 18 days (including loading) already! I thought the time would crawl, but really it's flying! I've got a long road ahead of me, but for the first time, in a long time, I feel like I'll get there!

Nothing else to report! Hubby got a bad headache last night (as I did on my first day of VLCD), but I told him it was normal. He's still gung ho, but he's dreaming of all the food he can't have. He keeps saying he wants a t-bone steak! Funny, I crave things like french fries. I'm so glad I won't have to read about Lili's food anymore! I love her posts, but they made me HUNGRY! Welcome back to "jail rations", Lili! :P

Keep your fingers crossed for me that I'll be in the 240's when I wake up!

Good night all!

Cheryl :)

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Day 15 VLCD

Round 1
Date started – October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight – 267 lbs
Weight today – 250.5 lbs
Weight loss today – 1 lb
Weight loss yesterday – 1.5 lbs
Weight loss since beginning – 16.5 lbs

Another pound down! Yay!! I'm getting that "this can't be real" feeling, and I actually have anxiety every time I step on the scale, expecting it to be a dream! I can't believe how awesome this diet is!!!

Ok, onto the less "sunshine and rainbows" hehe. Alright.. now I do think it's awesome that my hubby is doing the protocol with me, I really do! But he's driving me a little batty today. He wants me to tell him what to eat, how much, weigh it for him, keep track of it, etc. THEN when I do all that, he says, "this diet is easy, I don't know what you're talking about!" with a big cheery smile! I could smack him! hehe. The worst part is that I know if I don't weigh his food, and keep track of it, he'll just "wing it". I don't want to screw up his hypothalamus! Ahhhhh men! Plus, you watch, he's going to drop weight like crazy and not stall at all. He's only about 20 lbs overweight, and he could honestly drop that in a month without dieting. He has an amazing metabolism, that I would die for.

Back to the sunshine! I have less than a pound to go until I'm into the 240's. I haven't been there in probably 5 years, or so. I don't even know! I know that every time I diet. I give up at 255-ish, because the weight loss stops. Now, in one or 2 days, I will be at a weight I haven't seen in years. I think I might cry.

Today we did the picture thing. My hubby put on these god awful skimpy briefs and danced around and made me laugh. (TMI, I know, but I'm posting it for a reason...) Anyway, he said, "come on, let's take our pictures, it will be fun!) I don't know about FUN, having photographic evidence of how much weight I've gained is NOT fun, but I'm glad I'll have them to look back on! When I've got something to compare them to, I'll post... It's not pretty, folks!

I just want to say thanks so much for all of your support. I can't talk to any of my friends about this. They are all skinny and complain if they gain 5 pounds. They would never understand what an emotional thing it is to carry all this weight around. I've felt androgenous around them for probably 7 or 8 years. (not exactly sure when I started the weight gain) I can't believe that my dream of wearing a bathing suit on the beach, and not feeling like everyone is watching me and pointing, is GOING to come true!

Happy losing everyone! (or maintaining if that's where you're at!) Today is a great day!

Cheryl :)

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Day 14 VLCD

Round 1
Date started – October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight – 267 lbs
Weight today – 251.5
Weight loss today – 1.5 lbs
Weight loss yesterday – 1 lb
Weight loss since beginning – 15.5 lbs


Today was a good day! I made a new batch of hcg last night, and I think it's more potent! I felt tired again, today, like I did in the beginning. Not my favourite side effect! BUT if it helps the weight loss, I'm fine with it :D

My hubby started on the diet today. He isn't very overweight, but he's got the beer gut. I think he's just trying to be supportive. He's awesome! My daughter said she could see the weight coming off, she said she can see my cheek bones better, and my double chin is reducing! She's such a sweetie :)

My 2x shirts are falling off my shoulders and my favourite khaki pants are getting big in the waist. Can you say excited?! Woohoo! It's working :)

Hope you're all having a wonderful day. Happy losing to those of you that are on my path, and happy maintaining to those of you that are on P3!

Thanks to those of you that take the time to read my posts and especially those of you that take a couple of minutes to post. It's appreciated!

Cheryl :)

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Day 12 VLCD

Round 1
Date started – October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight – 267 lbs
Weight today – 254.5 lbs
Weight loss today – 0.5 lbs
Weight loss yesterday – 0.5 lbs
Weight loss since beginning – 12.5 lbs

Not much to report! Another half pound gone, today, so I'm happy. I can't wait to get into the 240's. I haven't been there in years. I always give up before I get there. I can almost taste it! (no pun intended) hehe.

I drank 3 litres of water today, so I'm hoping the scale continues to move. I am starting to feel the difference in my clothes, so I'll be happy either way!

I realized today, that I've mixed my hcg on the "heavy" side. I'm going to run out of this mixture 3 days early. I don't know what I've done, but I'll be more careful on the next batch. This means I've been taking about 147 IU twice a day, instead of 125 IU. It will be interesting to see if changing the dose alters my loss. I ordered a fair bit of hcg, so I have more than enough to go the 40 days.

Cheryl

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Day 11 VLCD - slow but steady!

Round 1
Date started – October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight – 267 lbs
Weight today – 255 lbs
Weight loss today – 0.5 lbs
Weight loss yesterday – 1 lb
Weight loss since beginning – 12 lbs

0.5 pounds today! Slow but steady.. I'll take it!

Today I feel a little more centered. I had a girls' night with my daughter, and we watched "Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants" and "Mean Girls" (both on WTN). What a great movie the "Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants" is. It makes you laugh, it makes you cry, and it really makes you see the bigger picture.

Yes, it's true that weight loss is a big focus in my life right now, but the movie made me remember that there is so much more that is important to me. I have this body that's bigger than I'd like it to be, but it's healthy, I have no diseases or challenges. I need to just let the weight loss come, and remember to smell the roses. There have been too many days of "When I'm thin, I'll do this, or that", etc. No more of that! Life is not a dress rehearsal. Thin or fat, or somewhere in between, I'll realize how blessed I am, and live every day counting my blessings.

Cheryl

Friday, October 19, 2007

Day 10 VLCD The scale moved!!

Round 1
Date started – October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight – 267 lbs
Weight today – 255.5
Weight loss today – 1 lb
Weight loss yesterday – 0 lbs
Weight loss since beginning – 11.5

I'm in much better spirits today, needless to say! The scale finally moved! I was beginning to think my hcg had gone bad. I'm still a bit worried about it, because now it just seems like I'm on a really strict form of Atkins and I lost like gangbusters on that diet! I still don't have any substantial hunger, so I'll keep going and see how the next 11 days feel (until I make my next batch)

My energy was better today! I didn't feel like I was dragging myself around. I'm still waiting for the "euphoria" phase, but I'll take just feeling "normal".

What an emotional roller coaster this diet is. If you asked me a couple of weeks ago, how important that scale would become to me, I never would have believed it. I used to read the posts on the hcg dieters board and think to myself, "What are they getting so worked up about? The scale will move if they just have patience." Now I find I have to tell myself that. It's so easy to get discouraged. Today my friend asked me out to lunch, and I had to say no. There is just no way I could follow the diet and go out for lunch, and frankly I wouldn't want to order what I get to eat.

28 more days to go, I can do it! A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. I'm stepping!!

Thanks to those of you that have taken the time to read and post (yes, that's you, Biz!!) It means a lot to me that I'm not alone in this.

Take care,

Cheryl

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Day 9 VLCD still no loss!

Round 1
Date started – October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight – 267 lbs
Weight today – 256.5
Weight loss today – 0
Weight loss yesterday – 0
Weight loss since beginning – 10.5

*Sigh* well I can't say I'm surprised, but no weight loss today. I did better, though! I drank at least 8 glasses of water, substituted Stevia for Splenda and didn't eat any oranges or melba toast. Maybe I'm being greedy, but I've seen people as heavy as I am lose much more. I guess i should remember that I'm still averaging just under a pound a day, and that's pretty good!!

Hopefully the scale will move tomorrow!!

Wish me luck,

Cheryl

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Day 8 VLCD

Round 1
Date started – October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight – 267 lbs
Weight today – 256.5
Weight loss today – 0 lbs
Weight loss yesterday – 3 lbs
Weight loss since beginning – 10.5


Well today I didn't lose anything, but I'm not surprised! I think I had maybe 3 glasses of water yesterday and less than 400 calories. I knew the scale wasn't going to budge. I'm just not hungry! I find I'm forcing myself to eat. And even today, I'm not getting my water down. If I want to lose this weight, I'm going to have to start following the rules!!

Hopefully the next time I post, I'll be back on track... funny, I thought I'd say that if I cheated, but I haven't even been tempted to cheat!

Cheryl

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Day 7 VLCD

Round 1
Date started – October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight – 267 lbs
Weight today – 256.5
Weight loss today – 3 lbs
Weight loss yesterday – 1.5 lbs
Weight loss since beginning – 10.5 lbs


I hit the 10 lb mark!!! Yay!!


Monday, October 15, 2007

Day 6 VLCD TOM is in town!

Round 1
Date started – October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight – 267
Weight today - 259.5
Weight loss today – 1.5 lbs
Weight loss yesterday – 0 lbs
Weight loss since beginning – 7.5 lbs


Well today was better for weight loss! I lost 1.5 lbs! Yay! The only negative is that TOM is here. I have cramps like you wouldn't believe, and I'm really tired. Since I only have 40 days to be on this diet for this round, I decided to keep taking the hcg throughout this time. I always have bad cramps on my first day, but today has been bad.

I'm really finding that drinking tea is helping me. I don't like the licorice taste of Stevia, so I'm using Splenda. I know.. it's bad! But it's been my saving grace. If I start to stall, I'll have to order Zsweet.

I found it really hard to get 500 calories down today. It's not that I wasn't hungry, you just have to eat so much of your chosen vegetable to get enough calories! I'm also staying off oranges for the time being to see if that's hurting my weight loss.

I'm not overly optimistic about tomorrow's results, because of TOM, but I'm hopeful! Wish me luck.

Until tomorrow,

Cheryl

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Discouraging day VLCD 5

Round 1
Date started - October 8th, 2007
Starting Weight - 267 lbs
Weight today - 261 lbs
Weight loss today - 0 lbs
Weight loss yesterday - 1.5 lbs
Weight loss since beginning - 6 lbs



Well, I've decided to blog. I don't know if anyone will read this, or if I'll just babble incessantly, but I think I need somewhere to talk. This is day 5 of VLCD and I feel discouraged today. I stepped on the scale, and I didn't lose anything. I knew these days would come, but I think I thought they'd come later. I haven't cheated one tiny bit. My husband says I'm obsessive weighing everything, but this is too important to me to mess it up.

I saw a magazine on the store shelf yesterday and it said, "Lose 85 pounds by Christmas" and I wondered if every diet is just the same. I wondered if this is just another time where I'll get my hopes up, and they'll be dashed, and I'll never be thin or at least "normal".

It's almost dinner time, and I don't have a clue what I'm going to eat. How can I be getting bored with the food already? I promised myself that I would do this to the best of my ability for 40 days, and no matter how much I get sick of the food, I will.

I'm the friend that listens to everyone, but doesn't unload on anyone. Maybe that's why I've decided to blog. Maybe this will be my "friend", where I can whine and complain, and no one will judge me for it.

Anyway, if you're reading this, sorry about the gloomy post! I'll try to do better.

Cheryl